| time for my biyearly blog |
[Jun. 24th, 2008|05:44 pm] |
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it has been a very long time since i have even thought about LJ. I guess ill update this thing.
me and mike are still together and going strong. We will make 2 years on august 4th. wooo! He is great but he works alot. He is a diesal mechanic and gets sent on jobs all over the place to fix oil rigs and bardges. he makes good money but sometimes it sucks not being able to se or talk to him for a week or so. they are thinking about sending him to India or trinidad for a month. He doesnt wanna go but i think he should. he would have everything paid for him on his trip plus a 100 dollar a day per diem pay plus time and a half hourly wage while he is over there...he could make around 10,000 dollars in 1 month!
i havent been doing much latley. i use to go crazy if i was stuck inside all day. now it is just as hard to get me to go out as it use to be to convince me to stay in. im just so tired all the time... and im always broke too.
I moved back to new orleans in august to take a job at oschner but it sucked and they didnt pay me enough for all the crap i had to deal with. so i got a job working at a sports bar by my house called waloo's. i LOVE my job but people generally piss me off alot. Like seriously, if you are gonna come in order food, drink beer,and have a shot and then pour 200 or 300 hundred dollars into a video poker machine... why do you think that 1 dollar is a good tip?? obviously u have the money to throw away on gambling... how about giving some of the money that seems to mean nothing to u to the bartender that serves you and cooks food for you almost everyday!!! grrr and these spanish guys keep coming in and snapping their fingers at me(they never tip) and then they go to the jukebox and play spanish music! its a sports bar... nobody wants to listen to that shit. i actually have had some of my good tipping customers leave because the spanish music was driving them crazy. it just suprises me how impatient people are... i mean its only a beer you can wait. ill be in the back cooking for a minuit and people will actually walk in the kitchen and say hey i need a beer or i need change for
the poker machine... IM GONNA COME BACK TO THE FRONT!!! im not hiding from you thats what pisses me off the most... i mean do i poke my head in your ktchen at home and say "hey i need a tip." i dont think so
not much else is going on in my life... exept for the bad headache i have right now so im gonna go try and take a short nap until mike gets home from work. lata
PS: Kate your signs are beyond adorable. cant wait to have a kid just so i can have you make one for me! hah maybe ill order one for Sophie (my dog)... but she wont appreciate the craftsmanship... she might just eat it. but it would be cute with little bones and paw prints on it. heh miss you |
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| ehy is it so hard for me to sit down long enough to post? |
[Sep. 20th, 2006|02:54 am] |
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hey everyone who reads this thing. i have no idea who still does because im such a slacker and i never keep up with anything that i do.
unlike the majority of my posts... im not pissed off about something this time.
im actually happy for once. i am in a great relationship with a great guy. i know you might wanna know what hes like so here is my try at a description on him...
his name is mike
he has blue eyes
he has thick dark hair
he is from morgan city
he is about to turn 23
he talks to everyone he sees
he is such a coonass
he treats me better then i think i have ever been treated
my parents love him
his parent love me
thats about it.
i finally have regular bar shifts at joes. i love bartending. making drinks is so fun for me. and i am always being told. "this is the best margarita(or other drink as well) that ive ever had. it makes me smile. i dont dread going to work when i know ima be behind the bar. so its a good change for me. which is a plus cause joes was starting to get old. i cant believe ive been there for 2 years. i could manage that place if they would let me.
my brother is getting married soon. im excited for the wedding. im READY for the wedding. im so tired of hearing about it. its all my mom talks about... shes more nervous than my brother or candice. ahhhh i just hop i look ok in the dress... its kinda weird
i guess that all thats new in my life.
wish me luck with mike as he told my manager "i treat her like the princess she is" it about time someone respected my royalty.
hehe love ya |
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| thank god for my warranty |
[Jun. 14th, 2006|01:56 pm] |
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immediatley after coming back to br from san diego my computer died. completly shut off and wouldnt come back on. my mother board fried apparently. i sent it off to HP and they fixed it. took about a month but now i have a new power supply, new battery and a whole new mother board so im hoping i wont have any more problems with it. my dad brought my computer to the geek squad even tho i told him that i was informed that they are worth shit. so my dad paid 100 dollars to have them say ya u need to send it to HP. fun stuff.
the contractor is coming to my house in new orleans today. FINALLY! i mean its only been 8 months since katrina. im so excited for my parents tho. they have been living in not so good living situations for a long time mow. so after this weekend my parents will have hard wood floors in the living room, ceramic tiles throughout the dining room, kitchen, and hall ways, a completly new kitchen all together with all new appliances(go mom!), and new walls. then next week my uncle is coming to put new carpeting in all the bedrooms and helping my dad get all of our new living room furniture. YAY im so happy for my parents. our house is going to look so nice and my moms face lghts up when ever she talks about her decorating plans.
gotta go get ready for work now. Magen call me and let me know how alberto was. |
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[May. 10th, 2006|12:29 am] |
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ive been in san diego for a week now. i am in no way ready to come home. i love everything about this city. everywhere you look is a picturesque scene. grrrrrrrrrrr i want to move here so badly. i dont really feel like id be leaving to much behind in LA. i know that i have family and friends that love me... but my family will always be my family and my friends that are true friends will always be my friends.
there is one problem tho. jason
he and i have gotten along really well since ive been here. at first it was this awesome reunited type feeling. but as the days passed i started to feel like an inconvienence. things started to kinda feel like they did when we were in a realationship. short convos like "how was your day?" good, how was yours?" "good"
i didnt even get to spend much time with him at all. ive kinda been on my own since ive been here. id take a taxi to the beach and id explore the area. or id go shopping on the strip or go sit at a local bar and have a few drinks... i was really hoping id get to spend more time with him.
tonight is my last night here and i was really hoping that he and i would get to go out and do somthing together. but he is working late so i guess not.
so if i moved here it wouldnt be o be with jason. it would be cause i can picture myself living here. but how would i be able to convince him that he wasnt the reason??
i just want to find my nook |
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| yay im going to cali |
[Apr. 24th, 2006|03:36 pm] |
ive been wanting to go to san diego since... well since jason moved there. he is not the only reason im going to cali tho, ive always wanted to go see california. im so excited about going on vacation but at the same time i am extremly nervous about seeing jason again. i havent seen him since he moved and that was 7 months ago!!!
wow doesnt seem like its been that long.
my flight leaves on may 3rd at 7:55 in the morning. i have an hour and a half layover in houston. ive never been to the houston airport. i hope its not to confusing. ill be back in BR on the 10th around 10 at night. wish me luck with all of this. SO NERVOUS |
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[Mar. 29th, 2006|05:58 am] |
1. What does your Livejournal name mean?
my friends in highschool use to call me gina diva cause i was the VP of the honor choir.
2. Elaborate on your default photo?
umm ok that is me... its actually a picture that was taken my freshman year of college at reggies on me and scott naquins first date type thing. pikes hehe fun times
3. Make up a question.
where do memories go when they are all forgotten
4. What's your current relationship status?
if someone wants to tell me please do... been talkin to a guy i work with for a while... then i have shit goin on with jason... i dont want to go either way here... i dont want a relationship with anyone here... i dont want anything to keep me from moving someplace else
5. What EXACTLY are you wearing right now?
a white tshirt and a comfy pair of bight polka dotted PJ pants
6. What is your current problem?
i drink to much and im strapped for cash
7. What do you love most?
TONY (my dog)
8. What makes you most happy?
is it bad that the first thought in my head was beer? honestly... i havent been truly happy in a long long time...
9. Are you musically inclined?
ya i guess. my parents thought music was important
10. If you could go back in time, and change something, what would you change?
id have moved with jason
11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day, what would you be?
a monkey!!!! they were having so much fun at the zoo yesterday... runnin around and swinging all over the place by their tails... I WANNA SWING BY MY TAIL!!!!
12. Ever have a near death experience?
i choked when i was a baby.... ummmm i drank to much and did some other bad things one night and died apparently..... iwas non responsive and my friend had to do cpr and shit.... yeppppp that was a while ago.... so dont flip on me
13. Name an obvious quality you have.
im always on time?
14. What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
brown eyed girl
15. Who did you cut and paste this from?
how did i get this? clicky clicky i dont know
16. Name someone with the same birthday as you.
my cousin cheryl
17. Have you ever vandalized someone's private property?
tipping over a porta potty count?
18. Have you ever been in a fight?
I have yes..... a couple of time... ok so what you wanna do about it?? huh punk?
19. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
yes yes yes ummm try epcot
20. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
hair
21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
mint mocha chip frap
24. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
when i had red hair and weighed 90 pounds i looked like kirsten dunst in spiderman... got that on ejust about everyday
25. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
heh sometimes
26. Did you have braces?
nope nope nope... shoulda coulda woulda
27. Are you comfortable with your height?
yes i think im the perfect height... im 5'3 or 5'4.... and thats tall in my family
28. What is the most romantic thing someone has ever done for you?
jp rode his bike to my house on the coldest night of the year at 2 in the morningfrom a good 20 minuit bike ride away just because he wanted to kiss me goodnight.... man the innocence of a 15 yr old
29. Do you speak any other languages?
spanglish and pig latin
30. Do you have a crush on someone on your livejournal?
eh ima go ahead and say no on that one |
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[Mar. 29th, 2006|05:19 am] |
1 .Who was your first prom date?
cory jacob
2. First homecoming date?
haha 8th grade i went to jesuits homecoming with Thomas Sanderson... but it wasnt exactly a real date so i guess it was Jean-Paul LaGraize
3. Who was your first roommate?
UGH Emily Vollenweider and Leah Vidrine.... they were enough to make me the alchy i am today
4. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time?
God i dont even remember... i think it was some sort of flavored vodka and sprite when i was 15 at JPs winter formal
5. What was your first job?
i was a hostess at lonestar
6. What was your first car?
SQUIRT!!!!! 99 hyundai accent... i miss my "squirtventures"
7. When did you go to your first funeral?
when my grandpa died... i was 13
8. How old were you when you first moved away?
as soon as i could... 18
9. Who was your first grade teacher?
MRS WEBSTER!!! she was great
10. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane?
i flew to atlanta to spend a month with my uncle when i was 12
11. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was
it with?
JP and i use to sneak out all the time. hed steal his moms car(no liscense at the time) and wed go to the french quarter.... then i snuck out with wookie once and we went to the boat luanch by my house and drank.... i was a bad ass
12. Who was your first Best Friend and are you still friends with
them?
ok ive had alot of best friends but the original was thomas sanderson. his mom and my mom were best friends.... we use to bathe together... we had matching school bags.... i mean come on
13. Where was your first sleepover?
umm prolly either at karens or kates
14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?
oooh jason (ya shush)
15. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a bridesmaid?
my cousin robynn when i was 15
16. What is the first thing you do in the morning?
put my pillow over my head and try to wish away work
17. What was the first concert you ever went to? cowboy mouth maybe
18. First tattoo or piercing?
ears- 9 months, nose- 18, tattoo-19
19. First time you smoked? 18
20. First sport you ever played?
i was always playing football with my brothers.... and basketball and softball.... sooo who knows... only sport i played on a team was soccer
21. First pet?
her name was ginger... she was what we called mega beagle. she was a full bred beagle with papers and all but she was one of the droopy ones that kinda looks like a basset hound... i dont remember that much about her cause she died when i was 3... but i do remember napping with my head on her side |
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[Mar. 16th, 2006|11:31 am] |
wow... this song explains what i feel about jason to a T
Picture perfect a life that you saw in a magazine
Or maybe a travelling book
Wanted to get on that plane and fly away
cause you are a rock star deep down inside
You walk with a swagger, got nothin' to hide
Cigarette in your mouth, a cuff on your jeans
Your sideburns are perfect, you're a perfect and lean
So you made an oil painting to inmortalize
All of the hope and vision in your eyes
In your leisure coat and cowboy hat
North American records and so much to bat for
Please bring me along
Please bring me along
Because I want to see everything you have to offer me
Get a job lifting cement
Oh it's so dry when it rains it gets wet
And the village was great, now it's a suburb
You left behind half of all that you had learnt
Relearn a couple things along the way
The thrift shop so clean all for half what you'd pay
So you try everything on, on for size
Drop top your Camaro and go for a ride
Please bring me along
Please bring me along
Because I want to see everything you have to offer me
And I don't mind to sit here and waste my time
Oh but this world is not mine to define
And I want to shine
Please bring me along
Please take me away
I don't want to stay
so im planning a trip to san diego to go visit him. ive been talking to him alot latley and i need to go. i need to see what he left me for. maybe itll bring closure.... maybe itll upset me... maybe ill move there.... maybe just maybe itll bring some happiness to my life
DONT TRY AND CONVINCE ME OTHERWISE IM GOING! kk |
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| im about to call it quits |
[Mar. 8th, 2006|01:56 am] |
i dont know what to say
my mom found out today that she has breast cancer on top of the skin cncer thqat we recently found out about. i really dont have anything else to say about that expept that she is having surgery friday to remove the cysts so please keep us in your prayers
my 22 year old cousin chris cook was taken away from us suddenly today. i cant beleive it. the tears are uncontrolable and no one seems to be able to talk about it with me. he was in a BAD car accdent. funny thing is the last conversation i remember having with chris was when i was bitching at him to buckle up when we went on a ciggerete run a while back. he was flown threw the windsheld of his truck, his head hit the van that he was driving behind and actually left an indentation on the back of the van and then the truck that he was driving ran over him. this happened at 11 o clock in the afternoon. the driver of the suv that hit him from behind was a 19 year old girl who is being booked with vehicular homocide.. my prayers are with her as well as with the rest of my family. i dont know when the funeral is yet but i dont know if ima be able to attend. chrs was a good guy with a huge heart and i dont know if i can see him n a casket. he and i grew up together i remember when we snuck off at 3 o clcok in the mornign and went to a bar when we were 17 and 18 when our family was stayin at the old lake house. and how our parents freaked out when we were missing. god, i remeber easter egg hunts and going fishing... i remember the way his nose crinched when he laughed....
i love you chris and a day wont go by when i dont remember you and smile.
whats next? |
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[Feb. 13th, 2006|08:34 pm] |
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| i dont even know what to say anymore |
[Feb. 12th, 2006|03:02 am] |
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so the bad shit keeps coming my way. my dad lost his job. he has been at the same job for 30 years now but they are getting rid of his entire department. he is getting a years full salary plus a 10000 dollar bonus but im scared that hes not gonna be able to find a job since hes 53 years old. ABC offered him a job at the station in indianapolis but my mom doesnt want to move. neither do i but if its the only thing he cn get i think he should take it.
this sucks
me and matt are no longer dating. surprisingly i dont care. i think i just have to much else to worry about to even care about he and i calling it quits. and its not that i didnt like him because i did... i liked him alot. its just that ive learned to not dwell. i mean its not like he ever did anything for me to miss. i deserve to be treated better than he treated me and respected more as well. im a smart generous kind hearted person and i shouldnt be treated like an arrogant inconvenient waste of space. im not mad at him or anything i even went out to eat with him after we broke up and we were talking and joking and i think id like to have him as a good friend.
i dont have much else to say sept for the fact that i have 2 days off and i plan on doing absolutly nothing and im damn excited about it |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2006|12:40 am] |
just wanted to write to say that i feel better
i went to work and came home did some shit around the apartment and mellowed out... i just sat outside and enjoyed the wind blowing strong... and it smelt great... like it always does b4 a big storm. now its pouring. the rain is therapudic(sp) to me. makes me think of my grandpa(dont ask)
OPTIMISM YAYAAAAAAAAAAAAA |
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| i hate the way i feel |
[Feb. 1st, 2006|02:19 am] |
grrrrrrrrrr
i think my MDD is flaring up. i never know what to do with myself when this happens. i dont want to be anywhere... no matter where i go i would rather be somewhere else and as soon as i get to the next destination i dont want to be there either. today i started bawling crying and i honestly dont know why (not pmsing either)
i feel like everyone is expecting to much of me and my self esteem is getting lower and lower cause i cant give them what they want. my dad is now expecting me to pay all my bills... and not to sound like a spoiled bitch but ive never had to pay for all my bills b4. i told him that it should be no problem cause at the time i was making atleast 300-500 a week but now that i work the morning shifts im not making nearly as much. rent is due tomorrow and im around 70 dollars short. hopefully tomorrow is a good shift.
i think maybe its my time to leave... prolly not... maybe just need to get away for awhile.
after the hurricane hit and jason moved i lost my simpathetic side for a while. for example if a person at work would complain that they had cold fries i wouldnt care or if someone was talking about their boyfriend not wanting to go out the night b4, i would look at them with this emotionless face just thnking "if only that was my bggest problem" Ive come along way since then. ive moved past jason and ive come to terms with the fact that new orleans will never be what it was in my childhood memories. but everyone in awhile ill feel sorry for myself... is that ok? orrrr is that horrible. i know people have it alot worse than i do bu f you were to ask any of my friends i tried so hard to be strong throughout the whole hurricane/ jason moving thing... i didnt cry much when jason moved and i think that was because he was the one i would have cried to... i didnt cry after the hurricane cause i wanted to be strong for my mom and celeste.
maybe i just need a good cry... maybe im feeling my MDD because i couldnt be sad b4 and so now 3 months later its finally starting to show itself.
i worked for 9 days stright then i was off on monday and now i have until sunday to have another day off... wish me luck cause with me feeling the was i do its gonna be hard.
oh ya and dont worry this will go away in a matter of days... im not gonna be permantly emotionaly unstable |
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| invasion of privacy |
[Jan. 30th, 2006|01:54 am] |
omg so i found out that the DMV actually posts copies of everyones drivers liscese online so that everyone can see it.
this means that as long as anyone knows your full name and city they can find out your registered address. THIS REALLY FREAKS ME OUT!!!
anyways there is link on the page where you can remove your name from the database so that nobody can view your liscense. i recommend fixing this...
http://www.license.shorturl.com/ |
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| FUNTIMES |
[Jan. 18th, 2006|12:42 am] |
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this weekend was very busy. magen came in to town YAY. she got here on firday so friday night i had a lil get together with all of the people that we use to hang out with. that was fun cause i havent seen most of em since she moved. passed out at matts apartment around 3 or so i dont really remember the end of the night... i was really drunk.
then on saturday i woke up around 2 o clock with a bad hangover. brought my lil hungover ass to work and managed to shiftlead. my boss convinced me to work a double shift the next day. didnt get home till 1 o clock passed out around 3 woke up and pulled off a really BAD double the next day. some lady threatened to sue me and my manager and get us fired because she felt like we were ripping her off even though i told her b4 she ordered her meal that it was a rip off. then i had a few words with her and thought that i might actually lose my job.... i hold my tounge all the time and this time i was just way to tired to be able to hold back. so i told her that she was the one ripping me off by not tipping me bcause that means that i would have waited on her for free and then paid extra money to tip out on her bill and that that just wasnt fair. especially since she even told me that i gave her great service. "good luck with your job." was the last thing she said when she walked out the door.... wonderful.
monday was magens sisters wedding reception ( she eloped and so the had a lil reception deal... no wedding jus party) matt was my date and oh what a wonderful date he was. i love it when men act like true gentlemen. he held the door, pulled out my chair, helped me out of the car, put the napkin in my lap, and when i dropped my cake fork he gave me his... it was just too sweet. we danced a lil bit drank a good bit... he ended up gettin pretty blitzed on margaritas. then we came back to his place. it was a very enjoyable night. a lil awkward at times cause i knew that he didnt really know anyone there besides me and magen and john. but he was able to hold conversations with a few people so that was good.
this morning i had to wake up at 9 to be at work for 10 whcih was very hard cause me and matt didnt fall asleep till around 5 or so....... ahhhh it sucked.
seeing magen was great tho and i got to see her family as well so double great. she is the bestest. i was sad to say goodbye but i know i will see her again soon. i always do
thats about it for now
DEATH YOU ARE MY BITCH LOVER |
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| my life is in the pooper |
[Jan. 4th, 2006|07:46 pm] |
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latley the only thing i can think about is how my life is going nowhere fast. i feel as if no matter what i do i will never be good enough for anyone. people seem to look down on me quite frequently and its starting to get to me.
so my grammer isnt perfect, i could lose a few pounds, clean a little more, get a tan, file my nails, floss on a regular basis, quit smoking, study more often, not drink so much.... but why?
last night one of matts friends said something that keeps rackin my brain.... "why are you acting like youre better than everyone." Me? ive never thought i was better than anyone.... as a matter of fact ive never been the best at anything. there is nothing in my life that i can say i have succedded at. i was never on the honor role, never captian of a team, never the president of a club(vice once),ive never had the best clothes or the best hair or best body.... so why would this grl even think that i was acting llike i was better than anyone. all i am is a mediocre person that has no drive or motivation in my life.
i want to be a radiologist but i cant get the idea that im not good enough to pass. i want to go to a real college but i cant focus hard enough at the community college to get myself into a real university. i want to save money but i spend it on stupid shit like alcohol and ciggerettes.
am i a horrible waste of space? if im not, why do i feel like everyone thinks i am? |
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[Dec. 30th, 2005|02:17 am] |
i just wanted to write a post to say... I FUCKING GOT SHOT IN THE LEG 3 TIMES WITH A PELLET GUN!!!!!!!!
it hurts so bad. he was standing like a foot away from me and didnt think it would hurt and fired 3 shots into my fucking leg!!!!!!!!!! i have 3 big upraised bumps on my leg(though i think all bumps are upraised... anyways) ITS WAR!! i dont know what im going to do but it will be unexpected and painful and or embarrassing, we shall see. oh ya the hot shot was steve from work.... bastard |
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| dont have much to say... just feel like talkin |
[Dec. 28th, 2005|03:11 am] |
ya i am so bored. matt is in cleveland so now i have no one to hang out with till 6 in the morning. so im layin here..... hungover and lonley
ive been on a drinking outrage latley, its been very interesting to say the least.
went to ivars tonight to meet up with jenny, becky and steve.lots of booze lots of fun. eventually kyle and emily showed up and then me jenny and kyle came back to my apt and wee bein badasses with celeste, sara, and saras boyfriend donald.... we put our extra room to use.
saturday was beckys bday so i went to the chimes and to bar called bigmikes with all my work friends. big mikes was a country bar and i just so happened to be wearing my "even my mullet has crabs shirt" so i guy comes up to me and offers me 50 dollars for it. then we did shots and drank lotsa beer and i had an old fashion. then i came home and met up with matt in the building next to ours where they were haveing a fete of their own. spencer lost his keys got in a spat with his mom matt brought him home while i passed out on his couch.... i woke up in the morning face down on matts bed with my boots still on. dont remember stumbeling up the stars but whatever.
the next night me matt and zack went to jennys apartment and drank with some of my friends, played never have i ever and buzz. we drank smirnoffs cause matt doesnt drink beer(pussy) and then i almost killed ourselves by thinking that a median was existant. not to mention how foggy it was that night i was scared to death cause i couldnt see ANYTHING.
last night i hung out with will and some of his friends we went to the mellow mushroom nd then got drunk at the commons. after that celeste and i went to saras house and hung out with her and got fucked up even more. celeste played 20 questions with a sheriff about why she was buying 2 packs of cigs and 5 cigars.... it was funny.
tommorrow is hair cut and oil change day... then its firework shoppin with jenny. sooo ya sleepy time now.
matt u and i need to talk about new years eve!!!!! i need to know if i have to try and find someone to work for me.
night |
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